A Solo Smile

" I want you to tell me about every person you've ever been in love with. Tell me why you loved them, then tell me why they loved you. Tell me about a day in your life you didn't think you'd live through. Tell me what the word "home" means to you and tell me in a way that I'll know your mothers name just by the way you describe your bed room when you were 8.  See, I wanna know the first time you felt the weight of hate and if that day still trembles beneath your bones. Do you prefer to play in puddles of rain or bounce in the bellies of snow? And if you were to build a snowman, would you rip two branches from a tree to build your snowman arms? Or would you leave the snowman armless for the sake of being harmless to the tree? And if you would, would you notice how that tree weeps for you because your snowman has no arms to hug you every time you kiss him on the cheek? Do you kiss your friends on the cheek? Do you sleep beside them when they're sad, ...

If You Can See There are signs you know, if you can see, that prolonged drowsiness, relating less with fatigue and more with escapism. Of forgetting all the pain when we sleep. There are signs you know, if you can see, that habit of speaking less, relating less with introversion and more with caution. Of not blurting out the agony of the heart. There are signs you know, if you can see, that quiet smiling, relating less with ecstasy and more with sorrow Of not being able to cry out loud. There are signs you know, if you can see, that lonely tear rolling down the cheek, relating less with dust in eyes and more with helplessness, Of not being able to contain them anymore.. There are signs you know, if you can see, That uncanny silence, relating less with a full head and more with an empty heart, Of feeling too much yet feeling nothing. There are signs you know, if you can see,